This Monday is the first Monday of my new job….full-time Mom! God has done so much in the past year or so to get us to this point and we’re so excited were here! Once JJ and I found out we were pregnant we started praying and talking about what we would do when the baby was born. We had so much to look forward to, but things we needed to figure out as well. One of the big things we were praying about is if I would continue working. As we prayed about it we both felt as though I would need to be home with Aiden. As the months went by and my belly got bigger things started happening at work where it looked as though my position would become more of a part-time position. JJ and I still didn’t know what this would look like, but we’re excited about the opportunity.
So after 12ish weeks of maternity leave I started back working 15 hours a week. It was great to be back and to be in touch with everyone again. I was able to go into the office some, but was doing a lot of my work remotely. I knew working this way, especially with a stationary infant who was ever so quickly turning into mobile and alert baby, wasn’t going to last forever. After a few months we had to make the decision again about what I would do as far as working and this is where God really started leading the way. We were seeking his guidance and wanting to be faithful to Him and he was there for us (as He always is).
The Lord was so gracious and I wish I could tell the story in a way that truly does Him justice, but I know there is so much I’m leaving out. Over the past few weeks I started looking into childcare options that would allow me to go into the office a few days a week. We wanted to find somewhere we felt comfortable with him going and something that would work for us financially. The only option that we could find that would work would be the pre-school at our church. [Side note: Daycare is soooo expensive, I’m perplexed at how people afford it.] So after many emails back and forth with the director I found out I could get him in on Thursdays, but for Tuesdays and Wednesdays (the other 2 days I needed) he would have to go on a wait list. This didn’t exactly solve our problem, but we thought we would try it. So Aiden and I went in one day to drop off all of his paperwork and get him registered. As were turning everything in they mention something about next year. I say “no, I’m registering him for this year. As in starting next Thursday.” The confused looks on their faces let me know there had been a big mis-communication and they didn’t have room for Aiden. So after weeks of trying to find options for him and many doors closing JJ and I kept coming back to me staying home full-time.
Even as we were praying through and seeing God in his word for guidance in finding childcare for Aiden, JJ and I felt like He was leading us to have me leave my position at Allscripts and stay home with Aiden. So a few weeks after we knew we needed to find childcare I knew my manager would be scheduling our 1 on 1 meeting I would have to tell her I was leaving to stay home full-time with Aiden. My manager usually schedules our meetings for Tuesday, but this week didn’t. As the week went by I knew I needed to schedule a meeting with her and let her know. So I put a meeting on our calendars for that Friday.
Hopefully you can see how God was working in all of this: preparing us even when I was pregnant that I needed to stay home, urging us in prayer for me to stay home, closing the door on childcare options. As if that wasn’t enough (ye of little faith) the Lord was so gracious to confirm things Friday morning. I woke up a little anxious that morning knowing I was going to leave my job (in this economy, etc) and asked the Lord to speak to me. I am in a Pslams bible study right now where we are reading a Psalm a day. That morning after asking the Lord for comfort and calm my anxious heart the Psalm for me to read was Psalm 127.
Psalm 127 Laboring and Prospering with the Lord
1 Unless the Lord builds the house,
They labor in vain who build it;
Unless the Lord guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.
2 It is vain for you to rise up early,
To sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.
3 Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
The fruit of the womb is a reward.
4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,
So are the children of one’s youth.
5 Happy is the man who has is quiver full of them;
They shall not be ashamed,
But shall speak with their enemies in the gate.
Living on one income is going to be something we’ve never done before and will be a challenge, but we have to listen to the calling the Lord has given us. I’m so excited he gave me this word that morning. My work was starting to feel as though it was in vain and I needed the reminder about what a blessing Aiden is. So today we start this new adventure and I am so looking forward to this time with Aiden and am so thankful for the Lord’s guidance and faithfulness in it. I am also reminded how thankful I am that 7 years ago in January the Lord called me into a personal relationship with Him and my life has not been the same since!